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Now That We Have Tasted Hope

By Khaled Mattawa

Now that we have come out of hiding,
Why would we live again in the tombs we’d made out of our     souls?

And the sundered bodies that we’ve reassembled
With prayers and consolations,
What would their torn parts be, other than flesh?

Now that we have tasted hope
And dressed each other’s wounds with the legends of our
     oneness
Would we not prefer to close our mouths forever shut
On the wine that swilled inside them?

Having dreamed the same dream,
Having found the water behind a thousand mirages,
Why would we hide from the sun again
Or fear the night sky after we’ve reached the ends of
     darkness,
Live in death again after all the life our dead have given         us?

Listen to me Zow’ya, Beida, Ajdabya, Tobruk, Nalut,
Listen to me Derna, Musrata, Benghazi, Zintan,
Listen to me houses, alleys, courtyards, and streets that
     throng my veins,
Some day soon, in your freed light, in the shade of your
     proud trees,
Your excavated heroes will return to their thrones in your
     martyrs’ squares,
Lovers will hold each other’s hands.

I need not look far to imagine the nerves dying,
Rejecting the life that blood sends them.
I need not look deep into my past to seek a thousand         hopeless vistas.
But now that I have tasted hope
I have fallen into the embrace of my own rugged          innocence.

How long were my ancient days?
I no longer care to count.
I no longer care to measure.
How bitter was the bread of bitterness?
I no longer care to recall.

Now that we have tasted hope, this hard-earned crust,
We would sooner die than seek any other taste to life,
Any other way of being human.

Added: Wednesday, July 16, 2014  /  From Beloit Poetry Journal Spring 2012 - Split This Rock Edition. Used with permission.
Khaled Mattawa

Khaled Mattawa is originally from Libya. The author of four books of poetry, most recently Tocqueville, he is the translator of nine volumes of contemporary Arabic poetry. He is the recipient of the Academy of American Poets Fellowship Prize for 2010 and a 2011 United States Artists Award. Mattawa teaches at the University of Michigan, Ann Arbor. Khaled Mattawa was a featured poet at the 2012 Split This Rock Poetry Festival: Poems of Provocation and Witness which took place at Carlos Rosario Public Charter School from March 22-25, 2012 in Washington D. C.

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